I need serious help please??

I hate my ex bf and what he did to me. He told me he wanted to commit suicide every other day, and told me if I ever called the police, he would do it and he only liked to talk to me and wanted my help. Well....he left me ill in a hospital bed and went back to some girl he had gotten pregnant, in which I helped him come to terms with.

I cry everyday for what he did to me. I mentally cannot deal with it and feel like I am going crazy. He on the other hand has gotten what he wanted, his apartment in the city, a relationship with his daughter.

I feel tired, physically and mentally, and I dont know how to deal with the hurt and anger. It has been over a year since this has happened.....I dont know what to do.

A therapist is the best answer i can give you. I went through a part of my relationship with my bf where he had also emotionally drained me to the point where i was the shell of a person and councelling worked really well for me We aren't all prepared to deal with these things on our own, we just dont have the knowledge that someone trained to deal with these things does. It sounds to me like you are codependant and cannot let go (i too am codependant which is why i recognize the symptoms) try reading the book "Codependant no more" its a really good book to help you understand some of the reasons your feeling how you are, you were manipulated many times like a drug addict or alcoholic or another addict would do, you're going to be drained and your going to be hurt and angry, get the help that you deserve to make yourself feel better. Good luck with the right steps you'll be yourself again :)

Let go. Wake up tomorrow and greet the day. Wake up anew.

You have been through a lot and you are feelling really bad about it aren't you?

It sounds like you need to keep on being angry for a while, but try to use it constructively if you can. Harness some of that energy and use it to think about what direction you can take now that you are free of his emotional hold over you.

You can do it.

You need to see a counselor. If that isnt an option trying writing him a letter - for your well being - you dont actually give it to him. Put all your hate, hurt feelings and betrayal into words as if you are telling him without boundries how you feel. Write it , read it, read it again and let it go. Burn the letter, tear it up into pieces and throw it to the wind. Whatever. Let that symbolize freeing yourself from this burden and a new beginning for you.
Good luck!

Oh I'm sorry that happened to you. That isn't good. =( You need to be around safe, healthy & positive people!

well you need to move on i know it hurt and was hard. put you first now so you can get well start bye taking back your power.think of your health an how to move on from all you been thought good luck

Get professional help! Soon! If you need someone to talk to now call united way first call for help dial 2-1-1 they can talk to you and maybe help point you in the right direction to get the help you need to get through this tough time.

I hope that you find the help you desperately need.
No one deserves to feel this way.

Time heals all wounds.

Don't worry see your doctor. He will give you something that will ease your pain.

It has been over a year!

You seriously need to let it go. Sometimes letting things go, and comming to terms with the mistakes you made in the past is the hardest thing to do. But you must do it.

You made a mistake by staying by that mans side, when he clearly wasn't the type of man who would do that for you. Seriously, he left his pregnant gf then left you while you were sick. It was a big mistake to committ yourself to him. However, you now have the experience to learn from. Learn from this, so that you can be able to spot a dirtbag deadbeat when you meet one! Use this to make sure you never date a looser like him again.

Love yourslef, respect yourslef, and forget the slimmy piece of S**T who doesn't deserve the air he breaths! Don't feel bad because he went back to the girl he knocked up. At least you don't have to deal with his emo-crap anymore! Let her deal with it! The way he dumped all his mental issues on you was wrong! Never let a man like that date you again!

Set your standards high and date a man who is stable, treats you well, and is a positive influence in your life!

You are worth it!

You need to let go of the situation. Look at it this way, you're doing better off without him. Although he has what he wanted, you can still get what you want. Take pride in yourself and what you have accomplished. Just because he's living the bigger life doesn't mean you need to dwell in the past. Good luck...